... i so love this song and the lyrics are SO fittin to my mood. And tomorrow??? I will open my eyes again! Oh and the singer is TINA DICO, not like its written on this lil youtube *winks*
There are faces, there are smiles, so many teeth, too many arms and legs
And eyes and flashing buttons all around me
I'm a-watching, I'm a-breathing, I'm a-pushing, I'm a wishing
That these walls would not be talking quite so loudly
I have bourned out once before I've pulled myself up from the floor
And I am looking for a reason to stay standing
But sometimes it's just too much it's not enough it's something else
It's so much bigger than my head, it's too demanding
Sometimes the fastest way to get there is to go slow
And sometimes if you wanna hold on you got to let go
I'm gonna close my eyes
And count to ten
I'm gonna close my eyes
And when I open them again
Everything will make sense to me then
I have met so many people, we've exchanged so many words
We've said it all and we've said nothing but it's changed us
I have know a lot of men, some were lovers, some were friends
But all together were they merely passing strangers?
They'll control you with their silence, they'll control you with their words
And you'll control them with your body's coded signals
In the wild, entangled gardens of our insecurities
We lose our heads into eachother's hidden pitfalls
Sometimes the fastest way to get there is to go slow
And sometimes if you wanna hold on you got to let go
I'm gonna close my eyes
And count to ten
I'm gonna close my eyes
And when I open them again
Everything will make sense to me then
1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-ten...
*LOVE IS THE MESSAGE!*
Mittwoch, 31. März 2010
Dienstag, 30. März 2010
Sometimes...
.. things are turning out bad. Just another experience i just made two days ago.
One of my closest friends turned out into the biggest liar i ever met in Second Life.
For more than one and a half year she served me nothing but lies. maybe there was truth in one or two facts, but to be honest, I totally lost my trust into her.
Yes, she was also helpful to me as i had my bad times with my Ex, yes, she gave me a place when i lost everything. I am still thankful for these facts but i never expected what finally happened.
So what happened: gosh... long story lol... another friend just contacted me 2 days ago and asked me if i would have heard from her because he got a short message on his cell from her that she would have left SL... i told him she just contacted me three hours earlier to get some Landmarks for hairshops ... i was under shock and really worried. I tried to get her... but she wasn't online...
Yesterday morning i got her hubby in SL and was asking him if he could get her to the desktop because i would need to talk to her... and as i asked him to get her in front of the desktop because i really would ned to talk to her he responded something like "huh? how can i make this, she lives in Brazil and i live in the US.". She told me from the beginning they would be married in sl but also in rl, they would have a lil son, would have 14 sims in SL, loads things about her job and so on... We had loads of deep talks where i opened my soul to her and also got more details about her own life. Also her hubby was under shock, that she told me all these lies.
Just as one example: One day she told me that she is more relaxed with nudity as a woman who is born in Brazil. Sometimes she brings the trash out just with a jeans and a bra... her hubby and son were sitting on the couch, playing PS3, eating popcorn and were totally shocked as she greated outside the neighbours with a nice wave, her son would have said "I can't leave this house anymore from now!" Haha... fun story if it just would be the truth.. if there just would be a son, a home, neighbours or a hubby.
I have no idea why people acting this way with other peoples feeling. I never will understand why so many seem to love to kick others butts and dump them to the trash. I thought SL would be a place where people are fulfilling their RL dreams... but in such a bad way? Finally it sounds all like a multiple personality and if it's so i should be sad for her. I know that there are loads of broken people, but i thought everyone needs a kinda peace too. You know??? I really know people good in RL... its also my job as a therapist, but i never expected that people could act like this in a world where everyone runs behind some of his RL dreams. I really hope that i get better in locating those people also in RL and to keep them away from me.
By all this trouble I really hope, that i haven't offended a really close friend. I was not in the mood to see anyone last night so I was just sitting in the corner and thinking again about my being in SL.
This time I found some reasons to stay, even homeless again. There is this special person I just met 11 days ago and who grows up to a very special person in my being in SL, my SL Sister Granny, even if we don't have that much contact at the moment, some very nice people like Britt Bury and so many more REALLY lovable people from my friendslist. I am also happy that my first own DJ group started so well. I thank all the people who joined it so far and hope this family will grow also. *MUSIC TO UNITE PEOPLE* So if you want to join me there, feel free to search for ERIN MESSMER under groups in world and join my lovable HOUSE-CHOON-LOVERS :o)
If you are a really nice person... don't hide yourself and spread love also into the virtual world!!!
My message for today has nothing to do with music...
*BE AS YOU ARE!!!*
One of my closest friends turned out into the biggest liar i ever met in Second Life.
For more than one and a half year she served me nothing but lies. maybe there was truth in one or two facts, but to be honest, I totally lost my trust into her.
Yes, she was also helpful to me as i had my bad times with my Ex, yes, she gave me a place when i lost everything. I am still thankful for these facts but i never expected what finally happened.
So what happened: gosh... long story lol... another friend just contacted me 2 days ago and asked me if i would have heard from her because he got a short message on his cell from her that she would have left SL... i told him she just contacted me three hours earlier to get some Landmarks for hairshops ... i was under shock and really worried. I tried to get her... but she wasn't online...
Yesterday morning i got her hubby in SL and was asking him if he could get her to the desktop because i would need to talk to her... and as i asked him to get her in front of the desktop because i really would ned to talk to her he responded something like "huh? how can i make this, she lives in Brazil and i live in the US.". She told me from the beginning they would be married in sl but also in rl, they would have a lil son, would have 14 sims in SL, loads things about her job and so on... We had loads of deep talks where i opened my soul to her and also got more details about her own life. Also her hubby was under shock, that she told me all these lies.
Just as one example: One day she told me that she is more relaxed with nudity as a woman who is born in Brazil. Sometimes she brings the trash out just with a jeans and a bra... her hubby and son were sitting on the couch, playing PS3, eating popcorn and were totally shocked as she greated outside the neighbours with a nice wave, her son would have said "I can't leave this house anymore from now!" Haha... fun story if it just would be the truth.. if there just would be a son, a home, neighbours or a hubby.
I have no idea why people acting this way with other peoples feeling. I never will understand why so many seem to love to kick others butts and dump them to the trash. I thought SL would be a place where people are fulfilling their RL dreams... but in such a bad way? Finally it sounds all like a multiple personality and if it's so i should be sad for her. I know that there are loads of broken people, but i thought everyone needs a kinda peace too. You know??? I really know people good in RL... its also my job as a therapist, but i never expected that people could act like this in a world where everyone runs behind some of his RL dreams. I really hope that i get better in locating those people also in RL and to keep them away from me.
By all this trouble I really hope, that i haven't offended a really close friend. I was not in the mood to see anyone last night so I was just sitting in the corner and thinking again about my being in SL.
This time I found some reasons to stay, even homeless again. There is this special person I just met 11 days ago and who grows up to a very special person in my being in SL, my SL Sister Granny, even if we don't have that much contact at the moment, some very nice people like Britt Bury and so many more REALLY lovable people from my friendslist. I am also happy that my first own DJ group started so well. I thank all the people who joined it so far and hope this family will grow also. *MUSIC TO UNITE PEOPLE* So if you want to join me there, feel free to search for ERIN MESSMER under groups in world and join my lovable HOUSE-CHOON-LOVERS :o)
If you are a really nice person... don't hide yourself and spread love also into the virtual world!!!
My message for today has nothing to do with music...
*BE AS YOU ARE!!!*
Samstag, 27. März 2010
One night in March
Today I had a really great time and just wonderful experiences in SL. As i signed in I jumped into a free slot at the ANJUNA BEACH CLUB. A cool party crowd, some of the great Anjuna family, my Sister Granny and also Spanki were there. I enjoyed my set and i think the people around liked it too.
A close friend of mine, Lolly, asked me to spin at her wedding tomorrow. This is really a great honor for me, especially because I know how many really cool DJ's she knows by her work at THE SLEEK. I look forward to this event tomorrow. I think I will start with some Lounge tunes and cross over to some smooth house tunes.
After a while Spanki contacted me and TP'd me to the Tainted boys Club. This is a Gay-Club... Close friends of mine should hear now the alarm bell ringing. Yes I am not really used to gayclubs in SL. I wasn't often there because the most places i have visited were pretty boring. It seems the gays in SL are harder to handle than in RL, because they always standing around, watchin, checkin and hopin for THE better one who should appear just for them! LOL
So the night at the Tainted boys turned out into a really cool night. The DJ was amazing and the crowd was cool. Maybe it depends if there are naughty places around, because at Tainted boys you will not find them :o)
It was another night with Spanki there and I need to say, that I love that we are able to have fun, deep talks but also just quiet moments where we both just seem to enjoy ourselfs. I really hope there will be an again and again and again ....
*LOVE IS THE MESSAGE*
A close friend of mine, Lolly, asked me to spin at her wedding tomorrow. This is really a great honor for me, especially because I know how many really cool DJ's she knows by her work at THE SLEEK. I look forward to this event tomorrow. I think I will start with some Lounge tunes and cross over to some smooth house tunes.
After a while Spanki contacted me and TP'd me to the Tainted boys Club. This is a Gay-Club... Close friends of mine should hear now the alarm bell ringing. Yes I am not really used to gayclubs in SL. I wasn't often there because the most places i have visited were pretty boring. It seems the gays in SL are harder to handle than in RL, because they always standing around, watchin, checkin and hopin for THE better one who should appear just for them! LOL
So the night at the Tainted boys turned out into a really cool night. The DJ was amazing and the crowd was cool. Maybe it depends if there are naughty places around, because at Tainted boys you will not find them :o)
It was another night with Spanki there and I need to say, that I love that we are able to have fun, deep talks but also just quiet moments where we both just seem to enjoy ourselfs. I really hope there will be an again and again and again ....
*LOVE IS THE MESSAGE*
Reasons...
... for being here. I decided to create my own BLOG-Profile, because I noticed how many people are doing that. I think it's a great way to get in contact with interesting new people, to stay in touch with old and close friends.
One of my latest friends also showed me that this kinda Blog is a great opportunity to get to know more sides of a human who is not used to talk about himself face 2 face.
I am not sure if I will find enough time to write here really often, but i will try to write everything that touches me deeply.
Erin Messmer is my alter ego in Second Life. I am DJ and creator in this virtual world. As DJ I spin some styles of HOUSE - Music and as creator I am used to build prefab houses, furniture, plants and all kind of decorations. I love to explore SL and all the adorable spots and creations made by their user. I am also a hard-shopper because i love to honor the work of all these cool creator. Tis fact makes me everything but rich in this world referring to the Linden$, but i am rich by wonderful people and friends from all over the world there.
Maybe one day we will meet there, having a good talk or sharing thoughts about the world.
I need to excuse my poor english, but i am not native speaker in english... I am german but i decided to write here in english (also to learn a bit more).
Okay.. I hope you will enjoy what i can offer you here. If you have any suggestions or questions feel free to contact me anytime.
Mad love Erin <3<3<3
*LOVE IS THE MESSAGE*
One of my latest friends also showed me that this kinda Blog is a great opportunity to get to know more sides of a human who is not used to talk about himself face 2 face.
I am not sure if I will find enough time to write here really often, but i will try to write everything that touches me deeply.
Erin Messmer is my alter ego in Second Life. I am DJ and creator in this virtual world. As DJ I spin some styles of HOUSE - Music and as creator I am used to build prefab houses, furniture, plants and all kind of decorations. I love to explore SL and all the adorable spots and creations made by their user. I am also a hard-shopper because i love to honor the work of all these cool creator. Tis fact makes me everything but rich in this world referring to the Linden$, but i am rich by wonderful people and friends from all over the world there.
Maybe one day we will meet there, having a good talk or sharing thoughts about the world.
I need to excuse my poor english, but i am not native speaker in english... I am german but i decided to write here in english (also to learn a bit more).
Okay.. I hope you will enjoy what i can offer you here. If you have any suggestions or questions feel free to contact me anytime.
Mad love Erin <3<3<3
*LOVE IS THE MESSAGE*
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